| July 3, 2007 There is so much pain and unhappiness in this world. I don't understand, can't even begin to comprehend, the mind set of people who WORK on dealing out more pain and misery on purpose. I have some people I care about that are going through bad relationship things and I can sympathize AND empathize. It sucks. Why are people such assholes? On purpose? Why? I don't understand the concept of people hurting other people ON PURPOSE. Just messing with their heads. If you don't want to be in the relationship, GET OUT. Don't stick around, don't contact them, don't do anything. I don't like vindictive, revenge-fueled people. They always want that extra pound of flesh. That extra little poke of manipulation. I have halfway decided to never have another "relationship" again. Just you know, friends. There are not many people out there in this world that believe in working on what you have, keeping it on track, being fair and equal in all things, taking care of each other instead of ONE PERSON taking care of the other. I'm sick and tired of being the one that has to do everything. I'm actually enjoying the living alone thing right now. BECAUSE I don't have to worry about anyone except me and Erica when she's with me. And at least she's not playing head games with me. AND she goes to bed at 8:30 and I get some peace. ;) I have figured out a lot of things in the past month because I've made myself work out the crap in my head and heart. I've only got one thing that I'm not sure about. It's a relatively new thing. And I'm a bit ..... I don't know. Uncertainly certain about how I think and feel about it all. It's very different from anything I've known.....I don't know. It's a really, really good thing though. A really good new thing that I'm not sure about. LOL!!! Yeah. I'm okay. I'm better than okay. I'm actually enjoying living my life again. It's been awhile. (previously posted on myspace) | |
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