She was constipated. No bowel movements since earlier that morning and most babies have at least 1 a day sometimes up to 4 or 5. Breastfed babies will have more.

sheesh. I've sunk to talking about my child's bowel movements. Never in a million years....

Ahwell. Anyhow.

She would fall asleep for about 10 minutes then wake back up crying again. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep and neither did Stuart. She even ended up crying loud enough to wake Mike up on the other side of the house. Yikes.

So I went with the old home remedy to fix the constipation. Karo Corn Syrup. 1/2 teaspoon of the light syrup to 2 oz of formula. THAT did the trick. She went about 30 minutes later with no problems and hasn't been having anymore since then.

We'll see how tonight goes though. If this doesn't work I'll go pick up some Baby Apple Juice and Prune Juice tomorrow. And if THAT doesn't work, we'll be doing the glycerine suppositories.

I'm physically doing better. The soreness has almost completely gone away now in my breasts AND they are shrinking back down to normal size. THANK GOD. Anything more than what I normally have is way too much in my opinion.

I'm still mulling over how best to convey the confusion going on in my head though. I was pretty lonely today. I guess it didn't help that I was tired as hell. I cleaned the bathroom. That was the big accomplishment for the day.

I think that has much to do with what I'm feeling. I intensely dislike just sitting around not doing anything. I mean, yeah, I clean the house and it fills the time but it's just not the same.

A lot of it just has to do with the huge change in my life and schedule. I feel housebound though I'm really not. It's just the thought of venturing out with a newborn in tow that makes me think twice about galavanting. Talk about a major undertaking. People take for granted how easy it is to just hop in a car and go to the gas station. I know I did.

Tonight after Stuart came home, I went to the store to get some smokes and soda. I turned a 20 minute trip into 45 minutes. Just savoring the aloneness, being able to puff on a cigarette without having to go outside to do it, being able to blast the music and sing along and just take a few minutes for ME. It's the first time I've been out by myself since I came home from the hospital.