Tomorrow I go in for my 6 week check-up. The Postpartum period will be officially over. I go back to work on Friday. Time is up. I'm almost afraid of leaving this house to start on the road back to a 'normal' life. It's very cocoon-like, staying home this way.

My body has done all the major readjusting back to normal. I started my second pill pack yesterday. I still have weight to lose but that's going to take a bit longer. I think the depression is back to my normal depression now too. The Postpartum hormones certainly have abated.

I think it's just in my nature to be depressed. That's what I end up thinking. I've been dealing with this crap for so long that I can't remember a time when it wasn't with me. Anyhow.

Erica is feeling so much better! Her cough is almost completely gone now too. Thank God. She's back up to eating 6oz of formula per feeding too. This child eats alot!

She can pick her head up and hold it for minutes at a time now. She is also starting to mimic us. Alix will stick her tongue out at her and she will do the same back to her. It's so funny! She will smile at you once in awhile when you're talking to her.

She can roll from her back onto her side now too.

She still doesn't sleep through the night but at least she doesn't wake up every 2 hours. Usually she wakes at 1:30 am and then again at 5:30 am. When I go back to work I'll take the first wake-up and then Stuart will catch the 5:30 one. Which is cool because that last one is the hardest one for me to wake up for. When she wakes up in the night she still stays up for about an hour and a half at a time. I guess she can only drink so fast!

I've really got my fingers and toes crossed that she will either stay on that schedule or start sleeping more in the night. Just something to make my life just a bit easier please!

But. Time passes. I just have to keep reminding myself that by the time she is 3 months, most of this will be ironed out and life will start being 'okay' most of the time again. I just have to remember that.

I've been debating on how I want to do this journal thing now. Maybe it's time to start incorporating everything back into one journal. It would certainly make it easier for me to update. Maybe have a different section for the first year? That's probably what I'll do.